Goodbye/Farewell

I wish i could mask the pain
To find shelter from rain
And write a spell
That's forbidden to tell
Until i need some spirit
To raise me up when i fall
To learn my body to walk when i crawl
Show must go on after all

Feels like air is heavy on me
It's not something visible
But yet it's still following me
It's veil of tears
Daily living in me
Dying to break free
It's how my heart speaks
When my mind pulls trigger on me

I'm the man who stays away
Your ice look is building my stairway
When i cross the stairs to farewell
I will hear their church bells
No time to ache, no time to hate
Now i understand why i'm the bait
I won't let you to control my faith
Don't forgive me if it's late

If i shall fall before my feet
And break my heart on these street
Let them take my body's weap
They won't steal what's underneath
If they should create another way
For everything that's left to say
To come out through my eyes
Dark and sad like our goodbye
So let it be, let my colors bleed
And leave my wish to the sky