Who does

I didnt plan
To have feelings
But i do
Instead of it
I should start
Releasing
But i cant
And who does?
I didnt want
To paint my face
With rainbow colours
Or to embrace
Short hapiness
But i did
I couldn't stop
You could
Draw me a map
To go backwards
And to free you
From my heart
But i would still
Come running
Turn right
And jump into
Your arms
You're the one
Who should have
These feelings
But it's me
Who else?
You're the one
Who should think like this
The one
Who should start first kiss
But it's all me
Standing alone baby
No one can prepare
Their hearts
To burst into flames
No one else in the crowd
Actually remembers your name
When will it feel right?
Tell me when cause im
Out of mind, out of sight
But i am always unsure
Always feeling insecure
About what have i done
I should have
Been more smart
But now
I already fell to the ground
I should have known
That sound
Cause i saw myself
Falling down
More then once or twice
I didnt need to roll the dice
I should have taken
Advice from my mind
But who does?
Beacuse..

I couldnt stop
Staring at
Your eyes
Oh god..
And i was so afraid
I was the only one
Who felt
Like a fool
Running so blind
I wish i could
Break the ice
But i don't want
To crush and to see
The world underneath
My feet
While i'm crying in my room
Burning all my hopes and dreams
Smoke smells like
Heartbreak catastrophe
It didnt get the both of us
I was only one suffocating
I know these feelings
From when i was sixteen
Holding so close
To the things unseen
But only felt by a soul
Yound and broke
But i feel so old
You should have
Give me heart of gold
You should have
Been first to begin
Not like this
Not by myself
Cause myself
Is now all i am left with
Myself who thought
You were best
Gave you more then
I ever planned
Felt more then
Wizard could guess
Everything is what
It seems
When you staring
From a child's dream
God i wish i was
Human being
With less emotions
To be shown or seen
By people who
Never felt like me
What a perfect tragedy
I knew but somehow
I wanted storyline
And i never had a plan
Like this but
It happened to us
And who does?
And why now?
Beacuse...