Happy

Chanelling my feelings doesn't work
Looks like you gave up too soon
And when i see the stars and the moon
I hope you're happy with someone new
Months and months back and forth
Always loosing my control
While trying to simply let you know
What i feel is so strong and i feel only for you
Met you in a bar for just a drink
Though this is like any other day
But your smile doesn't say the same
And i still cherish the moment i saw it
Never felt the freedom like back then
Or equally respeted for who i am
Maybei give in too much all the time
But all i wanted is to do
Is to get lost in those hazel eyes
You came exactly right on time
And the world doesn't deserve you
Cause you worth a milion and you're kind
So i said baby can we just relax
Been times on some test
Never wanted to make such a mess
But it's beautiful and i feel blessed
Just being around you it's not the same
It was never my intention to make it rain
I miss the moment as it goes by
All i do is complain and cry
But i miss everything
As time flashes through my brain
God.. i need you so much it's disaese
Time holds stills when you're here
What can i do with the way i feel?
Can't recreate what isn't real
Darling, i just want to be near
And i'm so soaked to the bone
And i only want you in my home
Cause i remember how you left
Coldness never ends
Everything i need
Is everything you are
I knew it when we met in the bar
I knew everything right from the start
Your lips told me to be proud of who i am
And captivated me so much
And made me the person
Who empatize and understands
How different can be perfect
Without trying at all
I just want you in my arms
But i hope you're happy
With somebody else
And i know i have no right
To middle myself anymore
And i've lost that right
Long time ago
When my anger defeated
All colours that were needed
To save myself from loosing it all
And i guess there is only
Goodbies on the floor
And i guess there will never
Be anything more
But i hope if i never
Succeed to make you happy
I hope that he does
Cause i know that he do
And i'm even happier for you
If you're happy too
Broken-hearted but i
Coped with things i don't understand
I said i'm proud of the man
You are today
Just stay who you are
And everything's okay
And i hope that you know
I always felt the same
When i acted so cruel
I was so such fool
Egoistic narccissist
Guard was always up
Never let anyone in so far
But i'm never too far away
If you sometimes wanna catch the stars
Cause i'm happy you are who you are
And i love you for all the things
You hate about yourself
And i'm sorry that i never
Showed apprecation
Or show some regret
About my mental situations
I'm sorry for this poem
Can't fix what's not right
But i'm glad i met you on time
When i needed someone
To get close to me
Oppose to everything
I sued to feel or see
And i'' try to be happy
Even if you're happy
Without me.